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May 14th, 2007

09:32 am: you gave your body to the lonely
what is trust. what is the point of it. its a gamble. the risk is being hurt. seems like a game i dont wanna play. ive never been a betting man. you can bet on that. my friend asked me what i thought summer had in store for me the other day. my answer was i didnt know, but i know the answer. its a change that needs to be made. i wont make it. someone will make it for me.

Current Location: front porch
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: angeles

March 21st, 2007

01:43 pm: xo
damn its been a while.
not much new here. been to jail and back. been clean and back and clean again. times are changing but not as fast as i might like them to. i cant stand it here.

March 20th, 2006

06:26 pm: whatever
so i havent written in this for a while. not much has been new. ive been reading old entries from here today and they make me laugh. oh well nothing here is new.

Current Mood: boredbored

July 18th, 2005

05:11 pm: im happy just because, i found out i am really no one.
this is going to be a long week. i have to be ready to move by wendesday. i want to go to new york or philadelphia this weekend. however i have to move. ugh. so i guess ill just be satified with drinking while rafting and jumping off cliffs. god i hope i land on that tree. oh lord im jk. jesus is on my side and he'll save me from broken legs. i wonder if i could do a front flip and stil jump out 25 feet? haha well see.

bff ill miss you tons. we gotta make the best of the time until you leave and have tons of fun when you get back.

eric is my homeboy with all the secrets.


Current Mood: flirtycrushin'
Current Music: bright eyes

July 17th, 2005

09:23 pm: if i could reverse it i dont think itd be worth it!
life is pretty good. every once in a while i have a day like yesterday but days like today make me realize it isnt always going to be that hard. after all when the going gets tuff, the tuff get going. right? yea sure.

eric holtry tells me good words of wisdom. sometimes i just get scared that some bad luck in the past will never change. but the truth is it will and im just a wuss. whatever though


tonight? destroyer destroyer, friends, bffs!, equals good times.

Current Mood: optimisticoptimistic
Current Music: tilly and the wall

July 16th, 2005

09:19 pm: sometimes i wonder if ill make it out of this alive. everyone i know went back. it hurts alot but scares me even more. i would honestly rather die than go back to that lifestyle.

"you dont deserve to be lonely
but those drugs you got wont make you feel better
pretty soon youll find its the only
little part of your life youre keeping together"

....im already somebodies baby


ps im trying to quit smoking. wish me luck :)

Current Mood: apatheticapathetic

June 11th, 2004

01:35 pm: and we dance and we danced in a strugle....
i dont wanna try to be loved anymore.
i dont wanna be scared anymore. or to kill anymore.
i dont wanna kill anymore. i dont wanna be alone anymore.
i dont wanna be anything anymore.
i dont need a reason to kill myself, i need a reason not to.
and there isnt one.

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